Saturday, August 21, 2010

From the bottom of my heart. :)


tengok tajuk di atas  pun dah pelik kan? oklah,ini adalah draft essay aku untuk dihantar kepada lecturer bagi subjek Personal Development. mohon pandangan dan kritikan…boleh kata ini adalah a piece of my life :)


Alhamdulillah, I still can breathe and live on His world to share some of my experience throughout my own personal journey in this life.

To begin with, I shall start when I was still in the primary school. Mostly my times at the primary school were being shadowed by my mom, because she is a teacher in the same school. As such, I have to control myself not to do things that will embarrass my mum. Also, people tend to look at me having some sort of immunity because they think my mum will protect me when something happens. I want to explain that my mum treat me same as all the students in school, but when at home, she treats me as her son. One more thing about me when I was in primary school is I have a clean disciplinary record which means I did not once being brought up to the disciplinary committee to bad reasons.

I reached my peak performance when I was in Standard 3. During my time they still have examinations such as PTS (Penilaian Tahap Satu). Alhamdulillah, I managed to pass that exam and have been offered to a step up directly to Standard 5 or continue my normal learning in Standard 4 in the following year. After discussing with my parents, we agreed unanimously to let me go straight to Standard 5. But unfortunately, when I was in Standard 5, most of my time was waste away by the laziness that creeps into my life. Because I get a good result in my previous year, I feel that I do not have to work as hard as I do in the past year. Besides that, I was still in the cultural shock when I have to learn back whatever skipped in the Standard 4 in order to prepare for the upcoming UPSR. As such, my result on UPSR was not so brightly. I only managed to get only 3A’s and 2 B’s. And what is more interesting, one of the B’s is in English subject (my mum was an English teacher in that school.)

Move on to the second phase which is when I was in the secondary school. This phase is a bit of transition phase because I spend around 2 years in the mix school and another 3 years in the all boys school. Before I go further, let me explain a little bit about it. Nearing the end of my Form 2, I got news from my parents that we were moving on to Kuala Kangsar. As such, I have to continue my studies in the new place. What is interesting here is the difference between the environments in the class whereby in this all boys school the lessons were more directly. And also the environment was a bit harsh, maybe because most of the students were boys. The teachers also have to be a bit strict, especially for the class who were poor.

In the year I moved on to Kuala Kangsar, at the same time I will be sitting for PMR examinations. Even with the so called “adjustments” to the new place in a very short time, alhamdulillah, I still managed to get 6 A’s and 2 B’s (but still out of my target. For your information, my target was to get 4 A’s and 1 B’s in UPSR, and 7 A’s and 1 B’s in PMR).

When continuing my studies in Form 4(that was real honeymoon year for me). I became lazier (to be frank) and more playful. In short, most of my times are not being optimized fully. I should be studying but instead I prefer to play games.

That year was also the year my father brought an Astro decoder. I, as an avid football fan became addicted to the sports channel until I force myself to wake up at 3 in the morning just to see my favorite team in action. In that year also I become freer. Freer in this context means I started to go on certain events like managing club and organization courses, participate in certain competitions, as for example, the Parliamentary Debate, and also lots of competition (maybe this is the reason why my results were drowned).When I was in Form 5, then I realized that how my life were wasted a year ago. So than I try to cover it back. Unfortunately, it was too late and in the end, my SPM results were badly enough to make my parents so disappointed with me.

Now we are entering the last phase of my development. From post SPM until now, there are lots of experiences that I’ve learned. I shall start when I first entering UiTM. At first I was afraid because this is my first time being away from my parents, but Alhamdulillah it was just flows on. What I mean here is with helps from my friends and others such as lecturers and staffs; I manage to survive alone here. Before this, there is always one question that keeps on bugging me: May I survived here in this campus, which is big and most of the time you have to think of your own? The answer is Alhamdulillah, I managed to. Maybe because me myself have been living alone for the most of the time, so that I have no problems in managing my life (although there were some minor issues here and there).

Starting from semester 1, I have been appointed class representatives for each of the subject. For me I was not a big deal (just being tired) because it represents an opportunity for me to know the structure of UiTM and the culture of dealing in here. At first it took me some time to adapt to the situation but Alhamdulillah I managed to deal with it. I’m a fast learner maybe that is the reason that I can adapt to the situations quickly. Since then I have been class representative for my class in various subjects throughout my 3 year in diploma studies.On semester 4, I was asked by my lecturer to for becoming part of Student Representative Council (MPP). From there I know a new leaf in my life will emerged. It is undeniable that my term as an MPP which lasts for a year gives me many experiences and memories that will last long in my memory. Among my activities in MPP such as organizing activities, dealing with industry people and also organizing big scale events.

My personal development continues when I was asked to be an Official Crew for Minggu Mesra Siswa, a biannual event in which new students come to UiTM for new intake each semester. While the event lasts for a week, so many experiences and things I learned throughout it. Sufficient to say it helps my personal development rapidly. Since then I have become closed to Counseling and Career Unit UiTM Kedah who was in charge of this activity. And I have joined most of their activities like touring schools and visitors, being a facilitator in certain activities, or even being a part of people who work there( after class I will always went there just for resting and exchanging opinions).

I have been through a long path until now, but I feel there is room for more improvement. As for example, my time management is still at poor level. I realized this problem when I become MPP. This is because I cannot balanced between studies and organizing activities. One thing I’ve learned throughout the years is my words, sometimes can be too harsh and hurt people. This is my weaknesses since I am a type of person that says something directly. And sometimes when I talk, I think of that as a joke but person who hears me thinks of other definition.

My plan for the time being is to be a useful person to anybody who befriended me. I believe that I’m not alone in this journey, because I have friends and families who were surrounding me. I will try my best to give happiness to them, as long as they know a person that named Wan Muhammad Syafiq Bin Wan Nazlan…

itulah sahaja essay aku.tapi ini cuma draft.mungkin akan ditambah atau ditukar. maaf jika rasa bosan dan malas nak membaca ayat ayat yang panjang. Segala luahan hati aku dan curahan rasa sepanjang 20 tahun aku hidup( tak sampai pun, dalam 13 tahun je sebab start dari sek rendah) ada di dalam essay this is from my heart to you all moros. :) harap boleh bagi pendapat dan kritikan, jika mahu. :)

take care all.




  1. chilled,
    tah.macam luahan rasa kot.haha

    thanks a lot.i have been through so many things. hope this piece helps u understand me better :)

  2. wow! interesting
    inever knew that some your age could think beyond
    i myself have never discover my weak points yet
    but man your english is awesome
    no grammar mistakes at all (by my view dunno about your lecturer)anyways i kinda like your blog so you can count on me to give you a visit

  3. fatin : there is always a room for improvement. :)
    anonymous : thanks! all this come from Allah. :) do visit regularly, will ya? ;)

  4. thank you ^_^
    (nia kirana :p)